tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7852161678046293117.post315161688485659921..comments2023-10-06T14:55:25.403+01:00Comments on Brat's Weave Of Madness: StrengthHollererhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03316542922791106022noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7852161678046293117.post-39817758405451779852009-07-28T15:53:18.234+01:002009-07-28T15:53:18.234+01:00oh dear. i spend most of my time doubting myself. ...oh dear. i spend most of my time doubting myself. but i hope a lot. a whole, whole lot. i spend most of my time hoping, too. ^^;<br /><br />the biggest mistake i ever made? make that mistakes... the doubt and the hurt and the self-loathing ebb after a while. 'cause it's too painful to stay that way for too long, so you get up bit by bit. sort of let go (but never entirely) bit by bit. sort of move on bit by bit. you never forget. but it fades, in its own way, and you're left with whatever you were, plus some scars, and a lot of things you learned.<br /><br />you may not have the strength at first, but you acquire it bit by bit as you keep going. the world starts to make sense again. the pain subsides to a persistent, nagging memory - it's always there. you learn to live with it afterwards, maybe laugh at it if you're lucky.<br /><br />maybe it's 'cause i spend most of my time hoping, that all my self-doubt sorta evens out. hope is a pretty natural thing with me... and i think it's the same thing with most people. you won't be able to stop yourself, even if you hate it. :)tinahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03633542881365012088noreply@blogger.com